How sad am I ?

Looking out of the window in the shower, I felt trapped, like happiness was out there on the path that I could see from the window.

I cried out to be on the path, but nothing. I was trapped, chained to my life, where I can do nothing right. As hard as I try to make everyone around me happy, to do the right things, I crash and burn.

I wish I could really be that person that is perfect, she juggles, work and home and children and relationships like it was nothing, no matter how hard I try I never come close.

The irony of  it all the one thing I want the most I will never be able to obtain and that makes me so sad.

Why am I here? What is my purpose?So here is my prayer.... God can you please help me, help me to change and be better, help me to not fail. Please help me.